One Monologue

When sometimes you felt like you're falling into a big black hole, think what is the purpose of your life? What is your destiny? What you wanna gain to? And etc, it made your mind go around the imagination, the fiction you build with all of you wanted to be. I'm including with this situation. Where I would like to know myself deeper than before. Dig it out what is actually I'm looking for in my own life. I was thinking that I feel better when I decided something from the thoughts of someone else. But now I realized, I felt so sad pathetic and regretful when i knew that decision is not made by myself. It's hurt.. When you feel sorry for someone who doesn't deserved to have it, at the same time you're definitely know that you can't go back to that time. This earth was spinning around with it's rotation. How about this life? The past is past, and we're live in life now.. You should be learned of the mistake that you got in the past and don't make yourself falling in the same black hole. You'd better to get some, than a lose some.

Scrap Boxing Day

When you got nothing to do, try to burned your imagination, make something with all of your creativity. Yesterday i made a scrap box to save a little stuff such as flash disk, cable data, post it and earphone that scattered around on my desk. It easy, all of you have needed is just a box, old magazines, scissors, and a glue:

Got it? Let's make your own scrap box, guys! :)

When Did You're Heart Go Missing?

Love don't come so easily

This doesn't have to end in tragedy

I have you and you have me

We're one in a million, why can't you see?

I'm waiting, waiting for nothing

You're leaving, leaving me hanging

When did your heart go missing?

When did your heart go missing?

I treat you like a princess

But your life is just one big mess

When did your heart go missing?

When did your heart go missing, yeah?

-Rooney, When Did You're Heart Go Missing?

The Monday-Tuesday with Sugar Family

I ever told you about Dixty, they're my friends on campus since semester 1. there's a 10 members of that gang (cih! males sendiri bacanya) but that already exists is just me, Apri, Oma, Nana, and Aca. So when we had a dinner in Warung Pasta at Kemang we're decided to make a new frame of our friendship, Tarrra.. The Sugar Family was born exactly at 10 pm. Hahah.. Me as Bee want to introduce my new family, here they are:

Nana as Cherry, Oma as Candy, Me as Bee, Aca as Creamy and Apri as Bubble

The following day, we're had lunch in Warung Ayam Taliwang and ate Duren Monthong! Yummy!!! :)

The 3 days Living on Beverly Hills 31

Recent Updates:

I had already told you that I'm having holiday with my classmates, right? So here it's the point, I cannot tell you much longer than to said that I really glad to had them. The classmates was made my days. They're so lovely, funny, and many of words to represent my happiness to had them all. Really. I remember the night when we spent the times to made some description about friend's look like (even I ended that games quickly cause I got napping) It make our self felt fun, cause there's no boundaries between us to tell what you don't like it to your friends. We're opened and be honest with our thoughts.

The conclusion of this report is:

I am totally enjoyed the "crazy lovely holiday" with y'all guys..

erren, me, astrid, nungqy, erikha, tete, ling-ling, boy, aa, andre, mas hen, felio, jeff and iput

I'm So Yellow :)

I'm very enthusiastic to having a holiday with my classmates, MC10-8B today 'til sunday! Yayyi! :)

Oh sweety..

"Grab my body baby.. Hold my heart don't break it, it is Yours.." J Holiday, It's Yours

Yep, it's me! have singin that song rite now!
Can you hear it? :)

The UK Afternoon

Today my class, MC10-8B, have made an exhibition about culture of UK (England) to finished our project class of Intercultural Communication subject but it wasn't look like an exhibition anyway.. hehe.. That event was startin at 3 pm on canteen of campus B. I think this event is getting so much attentions from the students whose came into the canteen, cause theirs so crowded. The audiences was awesome, i'd see when they're got it's entertainment that we had serve. Fun! (even i spent lotta times to play TTS with icha, haha)

Oh ya, i forgot to explain what's the exhibition about. We called it UK Afternoon and we presents an acoustical music performance by Tami (our classmate) with his friends Iga from the trees and the wild, he's also an announcer of some local radio station in Jakarta. Tami and Iga played some Britpop songs by Coldplay, Morrissey, Radiohead and The Beatles. it's very comfy to watched her singing.. i do love her voice. thank you Tami to made my day! :)

And oh, i wanna show you the picture of TTS that made me dizzy to think all day long. hahaha.. a nice cover too!

a Short Story at 8 pm

Kali ini ngepost pake bahasa Indonesia. hahaha, ini bukan karna nggak bisa bikin in English nya lohhh.. tapi karna aku cinta Indonesia! hueeeehehe x) Stengah jam-an yang lalu iseng nulis-nulis dikertas, nggak tau deh maksud isinya apah.. ini lagi dicoba ditulis ke sini. Buat yang nggak berkenan baca karna ceritanya nggak ada juntrungan. ya maaf ajaaaa..

Kurang lebih isinya begini:

Disini, diruang kecil yang separuh berwarna merah jambu dan separuh lagi berwarna ungu, saya terbaring diranjang yang muatannya hanya cukup untuk dua orang saja. tidak lupa, mata saya ikut memandangi bedcover yang saya peluk dengan erat agar suhu tubuh saya tetap terjaga kehangatannya (dan juga untuk menimbulkan efek dramatis dari pemikiran saya). Earphone telepon genggam saya terpasang erat ditelinga, alunan musik lembut sampai keras terasa menggaung ditelinga ini. Sejumlah pesan singkat yang bahasa teknologinya disebut sms hilir mudik masuk ke dalam telepon genggam saya. itu dari Apri, teman terbaik saya dari perjumpaan awal kami di gedung Bimantara tempat kami menduduki bangku kuliah tepatnya pada akhir tahun 2006. Beberapa kali telepon genggam ini juga berdering. Jujur, sedari tadi siang telepon ini sudah mengganggu pikiran saya. Beberapakali telepon ini berdering, saya mengacuhkannya. sampai detik ini pun saya tidak menghiraukannya (bahkan saat saya menulis cerita ini disini telepon itu tetap berdering, dari orang yang sama, yang sedang saya abaikan). Saat telepon itu berdering, saya malah asik membaca majalah Gogirl! yang ada dibawah bantal tempat tidur saya. melihat majalah itu malah membuat saya semakin pusing ternyata. Banyak yang mau saya beli. Tapi diakhir-akhir bulan seperti ini, apa yang dapat saya lakukan? Paling cuma gigit jari dan mengkhayal punya ini dan itu. Setelah saya pikir-pikir lagi, membaca majalah ini tidak ada gunanya. Terang saja, hal itu tidak membuat wajah saya yang tadinya muram kembali bersinar cerah seperti sedia kala. Mungkin karna saya jarang pake Pond's Whitening juga sih..

Hmmm.. Pesan singkat dari Apri yang terakhir membuat saya memikirkan dimana tempat saya magang pekerjaan nanti. Pusingnya saya malah bertambah lagi ternyata. Soalnya saya belum kepikiran mau memagang kerjaan saya dimana. Tapi setelah banyak menganalisa isi kepala saya saat ini, tercetus kalimat, "Saya belum butuh pacar." Menurut saya masih banyak yang saya pikirkan disamping urusan hati ataupun cinta. Mungkin juga saya sudah terjangkit virus jombloisme yang ditularkan oleh salah seorang mantan teman saya. Beberapa hari yang lalu dia menyebut kata jombloisme dengan pengertian sudah terlalu asik menjomblo. Mungkin.

tapi sedikit celetukan, "Saat magang nanti saya butuh orang (pacar) yang bisa memperhatikan saya, terlebih bisa antar jemput saya ke kantor." Tapi tidak! Buru-buru saya gelengkan kepala untuk mengenyahkan pikiran sempit itu. Saya tidak serendah itu memandang indah cinta. Saya menghargai cinta apa adanya, saya menghormati cinta dengan tulus. Hanya saja teori Bobot Bibit Bebet orang jawa yang diterapkan ibu saya membuat saya selalu selektif dalam memilih pasangan. Bukan. Itu bukan mau saya. Saya memang sering kali mengalahkan cinta yang berkecamuk di dada hanya karna petuah ibu saya. Beliau memang tidak mengatur jodoh saya, tetapi sebisa mungkin beliau mengarahkan apa yang terbaik untuk masa depan saya. Terima kasih ibu. Tetapi dorongan kuatmu terkadang membuatku meringis kesakitan.

Oke, terlepas dari masalah cinta, sekarang saya mulai membuka pikiran baru lainnya, tapi tanpa tersadar kaki saya sudah memelintir kemana-mana. Setelah saya tela'ah. Saya tahu. Ternyata udara di kamar saya sudah sangat terasa dingin. Pantas diri ini meronta ingin segera buang air kecil. Mungkin hanya sampai sini batas analisa pemikiran otak saya hari ini. Mungkin akan ada lagi pemikiran yang berkembang saat saya berada di kamar mandi nanti. Doakan saja.

Tak lupa, saya sisipkan foto coret-coretan saya tadi:

Heart Those and That

I can handle my sensitivity of music when focused listening to:

1. J-Holiday - It's yours
2. Lady Gaga - Love Game
3. Beyonce Knowless - Halo
4. James Morrisson - Man in The Mirror (Tribute to MJ)
5. Phoenix - (You Can Blame it On) Anybody
6. Eminem - We Made You (i heart Eminem since i'm in the Junior High School anyway, so glad to know he's came back to sing again, Yay!)
   
7. Kid Cudi - Day N Nite
8. Franz Ferdinand - No You Girls
9. Yui Horie - Pure Snow
   

It's playin 'round on my head! at least for the rest of this week :)

It's So Fun

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Indonesian's Cried Again

Yesterday is a saddest day for people who lives in Indonesia. at least 2 bombs was explode in JW Marriot and Ritz-Carlton Hotel in Mega Kuningan's area at 07.40 am. i was on the way nearby that location to reach my campus to having exam of intercultural communication. along from Tebet until Ambassador Mall i'd see the street's crowded with the polices, television's crews, and ambulances. it was so frightening moment that i had never seen before. i've just heard from the driver's of the subway that i took, that is a bomb explode in JW Marriot. so scared, cause it means that is two bombs attacked it place for the last one decade.

When taking lunch in the campus after that exam, i saw the breaking news on television that shown the last things happened in the location where is the bombs exploded. so sad to heard the people's cried and see the blood's everywhere. as an Indonesian, i'm totally upset with this unpredictable attacked by the terrorists.

Oh man, you (the bombers) can't break us down with this thing. We're gonna stick together to fight with y'all!!!

then, Learn It

"Love is like a beautiful wound."

-Boys Before Flowers Soundtrack

You'd better to find your love selectivity, learn the way he is deeply, and always think clearly when you'll decide something on your love life. I do believe, there's someone out there who will winning your heart. and if you got him, then keep it. a good relationship based on a good communicate.

I'd still find my love, i do.. and whoever he is, when he asked for love, i will gladly gave my heart and save it for him. but it must to be harder for me to try built it into the reality. so, never give up for love y'all! :)

Hell yea, that was a great Panic

I often be late when i have appointments, but i do really hate when i late for attending the important thing that is scheduled, so much! (oh yeah, it just like i told you clearly that i'm a selfish person, rite? ;p) Today i almost lost my exam of Indonesian Communications System. This is the final exam, and i swear to God.. if i lost it, i'm hurted. i do really care for my studies because it's something that i have to be proud of. even i did nothing "Wow.." in the campus, i will always do the best for made a better points for all of the subject that i takes. i kept on promise to make my parents happy to see my achievements.

and here we go, i tell you that 'stupid expectation' on my head today:

last nite i keep on trying to understanding the material exam (when sometimes i did enjoying to browsing and watching tv, hehe) i had a chit chat with lovely dulce on facebook and yahoo messenger, and we have discussed about the exam today, it's kinda sick to know cause we had that exam in the morning, and bla bla bla.. i continue to studying until 5.30 and dulce sent me a message that she's got napping but i told her i completely read those thing so i wanna sleep for a while. but i don't.. i made a record of the material exam and trying to memorize them with it. 8 am, i'd still on my house and took my breakfast. and until 9 am when i wanna dressed up, erren's call, and what? i do expect that exam is starting on 11 am but erren got shock when i'm gladly say to her that i'd still in house. unfortunately, she said the exam starting on 9 am. Ow.. my.. Gosh..

the end, what's on your mind? x(

Quick Report:

i had already met oma and it nice to know that she's looking good enough. i dropped by to sushi ya after met her with apli and achel. it was the first time for me to spending the saturday nite in the hospital, great! :)

and Yes, I Lost My Date

in the early of this saturday morning i'd still wide awake. i've been thinkin what i have to do today. watching, browsing, eating or sleeping, those are too.. bored! i want more than that. last nite my dad asked me to accompany him to kondangan at sasono adiguno's building but it's gonna be so bored i guess, i'm so sorry dad :(. and oh, i remember him, the last conversation, the invitation that i've rejected. oh GOD, take me back to that moment when he asked me to go out with him today, this saturday nite! i really wanna go.. i didn't mean to reject it. i won't be free tonight! huhuhu T.T

Get Well Soon, Oma..

Oma's got sick. she's in the hospital, she had been there from this tuesday but i haven't see her. i really want to go, but i just don't know when. there's always 'thing' to do that obstruct my plan to look her. errrgh! well then, i just want to look her back in a good health, i miss you oma..

Yes, I Knew That Way

Wow and Yay! now i can save the screen picture on my desktop! (i know it's a simply thing to do but not all of ya'll can make it, right?) i asked many of my friends but only two of them told me that way. there are two different way to do it. first, you can click PrtScSysRq on your keyboard and paste it to the paint or photoshop and save it. and the second way is googling the pc screen capture, and you can save your picture on it or just click and download this link: http://www.brothersoft.com/publisher/pcscreencapture.com

it's an easy way to try! :)

yesterday i used my time to answers the questions all about me in the facebook. it just like i answered the trivia quiz in a bulletin board on friendster that i did a long time ago (hehe, such it many years goes by since i left my friendster account) and bingbamboom, i try to save that pictures to you! here they are:

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and oh ya, i'm happy ;)

They're Likes MakeUp

Girls, they do want to looked nice and beautiful from the others. I do believe with see this pictures, haha..

in these photos: icha, erren, dulce and adeth

Hello, it's me again :)

i'm back!
a couple days ago i made myself busy to fall asleep. really! i've just got a hibernation on my days. i didn't do anything and i've got 15 hours a day to sleep. can't you imagine it? when i woke up, i felt so dizzy, and i think clearly that i lost those quality times to do something more brilliant than asleep. yea.. it should be! and now i had regret to spent those times just to continuing my dreams.

okay, just forget it!
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enjoy your day everyone! i have to go to sleep now because tomorrow (ok, i think it should be today, hehe) i have to attending the meeting about the exhibition class on campus. i'll be back on my good mood to write this blog, hhe.. xoxo ;)