I'm asking, Why?

I found myself falling with some dark colours. They're was blaming myself into the words that i can't spell it. It breaks me down, when i don't get enough respect from something that is too small, too easy, too cheap, and even i had underestimated them all, it's just like bigger on the other side. It's so wrong to angry with my life, 21 years old I've been waiting for being adult, not basically on the ages of mine. So what did i do for my own life and others people life? Guess I did nothing and I am too much complaining about my life, it's really sucks.