Baby I'm Back!

Whoaaa..
it's been a long looong time..
miss me? no?
aaah, i miss ya!
it's good to know that people has changed
everybody's changing!
some has affected me in a positive way
and some feels the other side of it
and i realized that life is truly goes on
some people may stuck on their own business of life
and some people was successfully moved from that "thing"
called it pain, scars, sickness, a failure, broken-hearted part, a ghost from the past..
well yeah, call it whatever you want..
but heeey.. i already moved!
Hooray!
it's been two years that pain has always haunted me,
i stumbled on the old memories and it's always playing in my mind..
feels like i can't move, i was stuck on the box
i want to move on but it's so hard
and it's getting harder and harder when you're alone
here it is..
remember when i told ya when over than a hundred reason why you wanted someone to be yours,
cause no matter what all you ever wanted is just him
i said so why do we have to wait so long for someone that will cannot love you back, that is wasted.
so why i took it so long?
ya, i thought he's worth to wait
you know, that's wrong!
but different thought of mine saying it's just like my own dream
why we don't try to reach our dream, so I'll keep pursuing it!
cause when you found someone who is make you believe that he's all you ever want, it's so perfect.
why you have to find so hard when you exactly know what you want?
same wasted, right?
but i felt it wrong if i don't even think how about to move on
there are over a billion people around the globe get ready for the new love but i don't get a chance of it, and I'm neglecting it.
it's so wrong when you don't try to get out of that situation
you have to out of the box
you have to create the brand new you
So i try to open myself, trying to out of that box, and it's just happened!
I'm no longer on that situation when i try so hard to push myself out from the outer space that i called it "past."
so here i go..
different me
different vision of mine before
the stronger me
the better am i to be
and the faster i moving forward from the awkward situation that trying to broke me down on the ground
this is the best part of me
it's because of You..
You, someone i could belief no matter who you are
and no matter how long we know each other
all i ever feel now is just i love the real you,
the kind of you,
the sweetest thing in you,
your presence around me, i felt it so true
thanks for being you!

So how's your life, stranger?
I tell ya, just stay positive in your life,
and you'll be alright, we're all be alright! :)

Suddenly Feel The Same Way

"The worst part is like, in the end of the day, you were like, one of my best friends and I feel that I’ve completely lost that. I lost another friend. I am so just like tired of making you be my friend and I don’t know what to do anymore, I feel pathetic." - Lauren Conrad, The Hills

And This is What I Love Of A Friendship

Buy it, use it, break it, fix it,
Trash it, change it, mail - upgrade it,
Charge it, point it, zoom it, press it,
Snap it, work it, quick - erase it,
Write it, cut it, paste it, save it,
Load it, check it, quick - rewrite it,
Plug it, play it, burn it, rip it,
Drag and drop it, zip - unzip it,
Lock it, fill it, call it, find it,
View it, code it, jam - unlock it,
Surf it, scroll it, pause it, click it,
Cross it, crack it, switch - update it,
Name it, rate it, tune it, print it,
Scan it, send it, fax - rename it,
Touch it, bring it, Pay it, watch it,
Turn it, leave it, start - format it.
-Daftpunk, Technologic

A friend to me is not the same thing like a technology. You cannot buy a friend like a cool stuff because they are priceless. But the words above, the lyrics, in my opinion has accidentally reminds me to something that i shouldn't do in my friendships. I can't Lock my friends, i cannot bordering them cause they have a freedom to say and act what they want. I can't Erase them too, because no matter what they did to me, they're still a friend of mine (unless they've betrayed me, I swear to God.. I'm not kind to them and i can be evil than an evil itself). And the last, this is the word that could applies to anyone -either a friend or a boyfriend- that you cannot Upgrade your friend to be someone you like. Have you heard a quotes that saying, "You come to love by not finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly." and i strongly agree with that.

And this is a random question:
Do you know the power of your friendships?
the answer is:
Having a close friend means you feel less stressed and find it easier to stick to healthy habits. and, most important you always have someone to answer the "am I crazy?" question.

and it's so true :)

I Want 'go' Limited Edition!

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I've Got The Invitation!

Yesterday Oma has sent to me a tweet to requesting the guest list invitation of MAP Fashion Week Spring/ Summer 2010. For a few minutes, I think it's impossible for me that i will winning the invitation, but well then, i tried to send a request to them and surprisingly when i check my mail an hour ago I'm in the short listed of that fashion show. And i will attend:

YAY!

Be Wise With Your Time

"We gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking
Gotta live like we're dying
We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or to throw it all away
We gotta tell them that we love them
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying."
-Kris Allen, Live Like We're Dying

Love Must Go On

"What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you, and what am i supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok, I'm falling to pieces." -The Script, Breakeven

I thought love is kind a sweet thing but love can be evil sometimes. Love can hurt you so bad when you're losing someone you like. And when your love is gone, it feels like no one can ever compare him cause all you ever wanted is just him. You think that your love is worth to wait. But how long? How can you move on? Just believe that everyone has their own soul mate, until that time coming, they will found someone. Someone you could believe, he is the one.

You Own Yourself

"No one can make you inferior without your consent." -Elanor Roosevelt

It means you can only feel lower than or jealous of someone, if you let yourself. That is, it's all you! Nobody can call you ugly and make you ugly unless you feel like they're saying the truth. We get hurt by people, because we let them hurt us. (adapted from here)

Tuesday Review:

I watched Alice In Wonderland with Erren after searching the book references for our thesis on a campus library. I guess the movie was good enough to watch. I've waited this movie since a month ago and i though it will be another great movie of Johnny Depp and movie directed by Tim Burton but i just kinda bored to watch it even the visual effect is great and John was funny as usual but i don't know.. this movie has failed to make me said, "Wow."

at least this couple yogurt of J.Cool has successfully put a smile upon my lips in my chatty time with erren :)

He said, "Just Talk, and Laugh"

Last night i spent more than a couple hours to had a chat with my ex boyfriend, my first love in the senior high school, ahah! We're flashback our memories together and found many things that we didn't know before. We laugh to tell our habits, our feelings, and many! He told me that he will remember this conversation, he said 10-03-10 is the day of the justification. muahaha.. he's too funny and i suddenly noticed that he really the boy I've been looking for that time. Smart boy with the kindhearted and quite romantic (cie..) hahah! He seemed to understand me when he told me who am i and who i was.. and the point is i learned something new to know myself deeper than before from him. thanky B! :)

Let's Support Earth Hour!

Show your support by turning off the lights for one hour, Earth Hour. In 2010 Earth Hour will continue to be a global call to action to every individual, every business and every community. A call to stand up, to take responsibility and to get involved in working towards a sustainable future. So turn off your lights for one hour, Earth Hour, 8.30pm, Saturday 27th March 2010.

add a #twibbon to your avatar now!

Too Much Tired

I'm enjoying Java Jazz Festival 2010 (JJF) Day 2 with Oma today, and get tired after that show. I watched the music performances of Maliq n D'essentials, Andezzz, Monita Tahalea, Glenn Fredly (plus his collaboration with Endah N Rhesa and Shandy Sundoro to sing Let's Say Love to spreading positive viruses in the life from the album of Lovevolution by Glenn, and that was awesome!), i saw Coklat too.. they're support the local product of Indonesia called "100% cinta produk Indonesia", i guess it's a great mind to support our lovely nation.

The venue of JJF 2010 is new, it's on Jakarta International Expo (JIExpo) at Kemayoran. The venue is larger than the previous event of JJF 2009 in Jakarta Convention Center (JCC), so we have to got an extra energy to reach stage by stage of the artist line-up show. And it's so tiring, if you came in a bad mood, there's no surprise that you will lose your energy to enjoying those music performances. I realized that it's not easy to organizing the music festival at a new venue but how can you decided thing without a bad expectation like this for the large event? i don't care about the larger stage or how many stages they have and the larger food station.. it's a music festival, they served over 20 artists each day, and with this larger venue make us get tired quickly. And the other complaint is the less coordination of the committees, i stuck in the line queue at Hall A2, gate of Glenn Fredly show for a 20 minutes! The gate was close on 10.00 pm because the stage is full of guests. It was the same time when Glenn start his show. How can the gate is closed when the shows starting? We're really disappointed with this, almost the whole guests has mad and shouted the committee in the front gate but they have no action to reduce our anger. And after the gate opened there is a bad, bad, bad, bad situation that I've ever seen in the music festival like this, i trapped in the line queue without a space to walking near by the stage. Over crowded! and the last annoyed thing is.. i have to spent 1,5 hours to out of this place, just in the parking lot! errrrrgh..

Well, it just my own thought and I hope in the next event whether the place and the coordination of the show will run better. I prefer to choose JCC for JJF 2011. Bring us back for the comfort venue.

Life is For Charities

"You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there, yeah, yeah, yeah.
You've got a friend."
-James Taylor, You've Got A Friend

photo from here

I used to think about the dark situation in a human life, there's not always stand a happiness thing in their eyes. There are over a million people in the world living below the poverty line. They need our hands to hold them. I love kids and i always missed my childhood, a wide memories that i will never forget even the worse part of it. And this "21 years old" means to me to become wiser than before, to be the people who can respected many things around my life.

As we can see, it's a clear view that not all of the child in the world have a decent life, many of them had the underlined life of poverty or even get worst to see the kind of violence and get abandoned by their parents. They need our help. We need to care to ensuring health, education, equality and protection for the world's children. Sometimes i feel envy with the people who got a brilliant voices or the other talents so they've got a chance to give something for the children needs by their individuals income. I am not be able to reach those child like an artists or the philanthropies but someday i want to rest a part of my life to help 'em. I want to support them as a donor or volunteer of a partner organization just like a UNICEF or the huge one of organization such a UNESCO. That's my biggest real dream to make a little difference for children. I believe that every child has a dream and a desire to achieve their dreams.

And The World Has Set Goals For Children
Would you help them for a better life in the future?

It's about Love

"What was the point of having unending life if that life was without love?" -Claudia Gray

I love to be loved and i hate to lose it all. Love means everything to me. Allah -the only one i can believe in this world, believing that Allah was truly exist in my soul, hear and guide me to had a great life. A family -how could i live without 'em? they're the lights of my life. Friends -they're belong to me in every time i need 'em, my energy. And my life -that is a fabulous thing i learned how can i stand in this world with my own feet. I'm fully blessed with all of my thoughts and feelings about something, learn a new thing in life just like a surprise for me, got a challenge to facing the hardest part of my life and trying to solve it all and a choice to have a new one you loved is the most cute feeling i guess, when you have a good feeling to miss someone that you had care about or even when you feel like you had a big storm in your life to lose someone you love, at least you've learned how to keep up and protect your love and try to be the nice one for them.

Daddy.. I'm Begging You! Please, Buy It For Me..

I've never been interested in any photography, i just like the digital imaging besides those practical techniques in that photos. but oh Gosh.. I'm suddenly obsessed of this Instax Mini 7 and Mini Diana! How can I? See these pictures and you'll amazed (or it's just me? :D)

Instax Mini 7 White and Instax 210
and..



I need to sell my dad's Analog camera before I can buy one of the two cameras above. Want to help me to buy this camera? Ask me! I need your help..

Konika Minolta Dynax 500si, click this picture for the larger image!

PS: information for the shop, price or any discussion of mini diana and others lomo, visit lomonesia or click this one for learn more about this camera! you'll impressed..

I Heart Percy Jackson

Yesterday I've got another movie day with erren, dulce and icha at FX. We watched Percy Jackson and the Olympians: The Lightning Thief, the movie was great! i love the whole story, i love the history of Gods even i don't believe in the religion of monotheism, i love the characters, those sounds and the digital visual effect, i love them! and btw, still in the atmosphere of love, the happy valentine, in the second floor FX we can enjoying the free live performances jazz. We watched them too before we went back home :)

Another Movie Day

Yesterday i came in campus to filled the Subject Plan Form for my last semester. I meet up with my lovely classmates of mc10-8b and went out to take lunch in Al-Azhar University, ate dimsum with dulce, erren and icha. After lunch we decided to watch a movie in Senayan City, we chose to watch Valentine's Day (it's a romantic valentine's day movie ever i guess! very cute for a couple!) but before watching the movie we had a chat in Sour Sally. Fun!

some interest thing i saw in SC, it's a chocolate! but i cannot mention what is that all about, hehe..

it's Holiday!

About a couple weeks ago, me and Oma had visited Nana's house and get our quick holiday in a day! After all of things we had done on campus and office, we had finally made our weekend to catch up together. Yay! i heart that moment. We had lunch in Ramen Sanpachi 38, i ordered jigoku ramen level 3 (by Oma's recommend) and i don't really like to eat that. That was red, hot, and highly spiced! I can't fully enjoy to ate it because it was.. spiced! Maybe i just shocked at it and i guess i should try it once more in a level 1 or 2 so i can have more friendly taste of it's ramen.

jigoku ramen

And after that, we take a short time to had a chat in Dapoer at Jl. Lamandau. It was a place that you can find those things in 50's-60's era. I cannot say anything besides classic. I ordered Es Krim Roti Kacang Hijau, and it has build my childhood memory. great taste! Here is the picture:


And for the dinner, we had it in Pancious. And then we're back home and preparing our self to had some entertaining life, enjoying cocktails or mocktails in Soho, but we're too late. We had no seat in there. So we decided to back home and watching DVD. ah, pleasures..

Free Like A Party!

There are a many things i missed to share in this blog. I forgot and often get tired to post something. I discovered a lot of things last months, but now i can't remember to arrange it to be written. sigh.. but well, i only remember to let you know that i had already done my three months internship on Ministry of Foreign Affairs RI. And i'm glad that i had finished my internship report too. It's really made myself happy cause since the day i submitted my report, it means i lost my load of the credits and assignments in 7 semester. Woohoo! i'm totally free! Now i can focus on my thesis, the last chapter, and i wish i can finish it quickly without any troubles behind my research. amin :)